Assalamualaikum.
Swings.
Buaian.
Di taman permainan itu ada buaian.
And you think that swings only exist in the playground?
NO.
Mood.
They also had swings.
Mood swings.
gah.
Thursday
Saturday
the Sea (the) Son
Assalamualaikum.
it has been ages. i know. if there could be dusts accumulated here, it would take me some time to clear it of,literal-o-factly. meant to change the layouts but oh i am so out of artsymitsy for the mean time. and deciding a title was not as easy as it sounds.
SeaSon. i meant to write it liddat, but with a style. just learnt (revised or realised) what is compound words in one of my classes recently and the teacher asked me to write a series of compound words in Bahasa Malaysia.and i just realized that season comes from the words sea and son that absolutely got nothing in common both theoretically or physically (?) but then they became a new word that symbolizes 4 different words (well,generally) and that 4 words expresses other adjectives and feelings and such. Subhanallah. how a word can do so much to our living and developing minds.
you following right? i don't have to specifically define what i wrote about the 4 words which are spring-summer-autumn-winter, where spring represents flowers,love,pink and everything nice,good weather,perfume,beauty,etc while summer explains about warmth,sweats,beaches,sunscreen,sun proof,watermelons,ice creams,juicy juices and such when after that autumn brings into your mind about yellow,gold,maple leaves,small whirlwind,rainy,foods,trench coat liddat with winter in the end,reminding you with whites,and a little bit of blue,cold,icy cold,freggin cold,heater,hot soup,blanket,your mom's warm hug and more,,,right? and..oh yeah i meant to write all of that.thank you for reading.
now, what about that one word, that word that could represents not only all of the things that i have stated above, but also, everything, from the very deep abyss to the highest cloud there are,from the farthest of pluto until the center of the sun, from the very beginning of life until the end that is to come, and from the galaxy we are living in until that very end of the universe that Wallahualam we will ever learn about.
it has been ages. i know. if there could be dusts accumulated here, it would take me some time to clear it of,literal-o-factly. meant to change the layouts but oh i am so out of artsymitsy for the mean time. and deciding a title was not as easy as it sounds.
SeaSon. i meant to write it liddat, but with a style. just learnt (revised or realised) what is compound words in one of my classes recently and the teacher asked me to write a series of compound words in Bahasa Malaysia.and i just realized that season comes from the words sea and son that absolutely got nothing in common both theoretically or physically (?) but then they became a new word that symbolizes 4 different words (well,generally) and that 4 words expresses other adjectives and feelings and such. Subhanallah. how a word can do so much to our living and developing minds.
you following right? i don't have to specifically define what i wrote about the 4 words which are spring-summer-autumn-winter, where spring represents flowers,love,pink and everything nice,good weather,perfume,beauty,etc while summer explains about warmth,sweats,beaches,sunscreen,sun proof,watermelons,ice creams,juicy juices and such when after that autumn brings into your mind about yellow,gold,maple leaves,small whirlwind,rainy,foods,trench coat liddat with winter in the end,reminding you with whites,and a little bit of blue,cold,icy cold,freggin cold,heater,hot soup,blanket,your mom's warm hug and more,,,right? and..oh yeah i meant to write all of that.thank you for reading.
now, what about that one word, that word that could represents not only all of the things that i have stated above, but also, everything, from the very deep abyss to the highest cloud there are,from the farthest of pluto until the center of the sun, from the very beginning of life until the end that is to come, and from the galaxy we are living in until that very end of the universe that Wallahualam we will ever learn about.
.
.
.
.
ALLAH
just that.
Subhanallah. Tarbiyyah is anywhere,anytime. :')
ok,that one word. never a compound. but it represents everything. everything that you could ever think of. that you could ever imagine. the screen that you are watching while reading this piece of mine, comes from a mind that was created by Allah (Allahu Akbar),while reading this, the air that you breathe in are the creations of Allah (Allahu Akbar),the light from your room,, was discovered, i repeat, discovered by Thomas Edison, who was inspired by Allah (Allahu Akbar) and where do you think i get the idea of writing this when in the beginning i have nothing to write about? Allahu Akbar.
ok here is the end. i hope i had brought you guys into an exciting world to discover more things that can connect us to our Creator :) and if there were any wrong thoughts or faults or any bad explanations, i apologize for that, because no other person can satisfy others so,forgive me. all that is good comes from Allah and all that is bad also comes from Allah but lies on my own faults. until next time, Wassalam.
Monday
Persuasive.
Assalamualaikum.
a medium-length babble, as it kept on floating in my mind. and so i hope i can sink it in this piece of page. and this has nothing to do with the living or non-living. especially cats. (?!)
when you are supposed to shut your mouth,
i could hear you cry out loud across the globe.
should have make you listened,
but you act like you were born dumb.
try to show you how lovely our world is,
but you make yourself blindfolded.
when you try to forget,
it kept on pestering your mind every single hour.
when you are told to vanish into thin air,
you keep on reappearing without shame.
the opportunity of being heard was given,
but you kept on being silent.
when being asked to understand,
you narrowed your mind and believe in what you wanted to.
'solve the problem' it said,
but you made up more problems of your own.
advices of 'move on' played in the head repeatedly,
but you kept on standing at the same old spot.
they say 'stop',
but you kept on running.
'throw it away!' i shouted at you at that one time,
but you still kept it locked somewhere deep in the chest.
everyone kept on pressing you to give up,
but you still wanted to find your way back on your feet.
i try so hard to find chances in one of the silver lining,
but when i turn, you said 'i'm tired'.
when things are supposed to be enough,
you asked for more.
you searched high and low for the things that were gone,
for that, you are forbid to see things around you.
they told you the truth,
and you accused them of lying and treachery.
you incorrectly do ordinary things,
and lead yourself to a wrong life.
when i live, you live,
when i fly, you fly,
when i fall, you fall,
when i die, i die alone.
because you kept on persuading me,
having no self-esteem of your own.
a medium-length babble, as it kept on floating in my mind. and so i hope i can sink it in this piece of page. and this has nothing to do with the living or non-living. especially cats. (?!)
when you are supposed to shut your mouth,
i could hear you cry out loud across the globe.
should have make you listened,
but you act like you were born dumb.
try to show you how lovely our world is,
but you make yourself blindfolded.
when you try to forget,
it kept on pestering your mind every single hour.
when you are told to vanish into thin air,
you keep on reappearing without shame.
the opportunity of being heard was given,
but you kept on being silent.
when being asked to understand,
you narrowed your mind and believe in what you wanted to.
'solve the problem' it said,
but you made up more problems of your own.
advices of 'move on' played in the head repeatedly,
but you kept on standing at the same old spot.
they say 'stop',
but you kept on running.
'throw it away!' i shouted at you at that one time,
but you still kept it locked somewhere deep in the chest.
everyone kept on pressing you to give up,
but you still wanted to find your way back on your feet.
i try so hard to find chances in one of the silver lining,
but when i turn, you said 'i'm tired'.
when things are supposed to be enough,
you asked for more.
you searched high and low for the things that were gone,
for that, you are forbid to see things around you.
they told you the truth,
and you accused them of lying and treachery.
you incorrectly do ordinary things,
and lead yourself to a wrong life.
when i live, you live,
when i fly, you fly,
when i fall, you fall,
when i die, i die alone.
because you kept on persuading me,
having no self-esteem of your own.
Wednesday
Martyr.
Assalamualaikum.
i came across a hadith at that time.
and the thought that came to my mind when i read it was..
WOW.
it eased the pain inside my chest.
the hadith said,
when you love someone,
but you kept it to yourself
and didn't tell it to a single living,
and didn't even confess to the person,
and then you die carrying the secret,
then you'll die as a martyr.
Subhanallah. how gracious is Allah.
and a famous quote during my primary,
when you love someone, it's nothing.
when someone loves you, it's something,
when you are loved by someone you love, it's exciting,
but when you are loved by Allah, masyaAllah, it's Everything.
i came across a hadith at that time.
and the thought that came to my mind when i read it was..
WOW.
it eased the pain inside my chest.
the hadith said,
when you love someone,
but you kept it to yourself
and didn't tell it to a single living,
and didn't even confess to the person,
and then you die carrying the secret,
then you'll die as a martyr.
Subhanallah. how gracious is Allah.
and a famous quote during my primary,
when you love someone, it's nothing.
when someone loves you, it's something,
when you are loved by someone you love, it's exciting,
but when you are loved by Allah, masyaAllah, it's Everything.
Sunday
i'm Strong.
Assalamualaikum.
Ya Allah,
i never thought that this would be really hard.
but please give me strength,
please give us strength.
Amin.
Ya Allah,
i never thought that this would be really hard.
but please give me strength,
please give us strength.
Amin.
Thursday
Week of Chances;
Assalamualaikum.
sorry for being invisible for a length of time :) got no time to loose. ok i lied. got so many times wasted playing games, lalalililulu been here and there, done this and that, had my mind in so many places that i wish i can float here and there. i was just in the middle of reviving myself after a week of feeling homesick, that's true. am so happy,excited,flustered,flabbergasted,AWESOME! because got the chance to skype with my family :) well, most of them. the second child will always be left as an outsider, is it? haha never mind,
by this week, i got a new idea of ways to write my blog. beginning from this post, InsyaAllah i will start to write my blog every week, and the title of the posts will be the summary of the week. :) haha buat susah je terangkan macam la ramai sangat baca blog aku muahaha
so, week of chances ey? what do we have? what do I have to tell?
this week had so many doors of chances, opened widely for me :)
first of all, last weekend, i went for an event, and it was so so AWESOME! learned lots of new things, met AWESOME people, been to a great place with great view,just because of one reason XD hope i will get that kind of opportunity again, and again and again. and come Monday morning, with a nice mark for a start, but alas, when went for the second class of the day, i thought; is it me playing dumb or am i really AM dumb? haha so,it was not that great, but graciously i went through that day, with a spirit that have never even reached the x-axis (if drawn in graph).
continued to the next day, where the math class as the first class becomes a not-so-easy task, followed by science computer class where the teacher taught things that doesn't make sense to any of my rational senses, and the seminar class, with questions like 'yeah i know about this, i learned it, YEARS AGO' where when at that time all of the things that had been crammed into my brain, where like, once upon a toy that have been kept long in the toy chest, which has no ending, that would never be found again. it is not a test, but only a practice, but still so real that made me think about the questions too extremely deep. when the other people in your class finish earlier and started to went out one by one until what's left is you against the teacher, then i realized how faraway is my knowledge compared to them. phewh. up until here, i'd said it is a chance of self discovering. weakness especially.
honestly, when wednesday came, my spirit went down below the x-axis. but i keep my faith, He knows everything, the best, and the worst; far more better than myself. :) it was physical education class. it is supposed to be the best class of the week, only if all of the players are girls.okayh dah masuk mood rindu sekolah, hmm when you are the only girl that plays basketball in that class, kinda lonely though. boys run faster, reflexes are better, they got strategies planned in their mind even before the ball is pass. in simple, they are stronger. why do i chose basketball in the first place? that is the only sport that i know i can run here and there, and the only thing that i can do to burn calories worth the week. maybe. haha and i played like a clown juggling the ball, like my head and my body are two different things, separated partially. haha for this past week the boys ignore me like i am not even playing, but this week, Alhamdulillah they started passing the ball, slow motionly,without great forces, or should i say, girlishly throwing the ball towards me? they are becoming nicer and hope that it will stay that way. have you ever felt like loosing hope on something, but suddenly in that instant you see the ray of hope, again? happens to me lots of time. and it is nice to know things like this still happens to me. not to say that my prayers are being answered, or that i got His attention, but to say that yeah, things happen for a reason, and that He will fulfill His promise, to those who waits patiently. InsyaAllah. and so, i would say that this is the chance of noticing kindness of people around me, and not just me counting my good deeds towards other people. it is not about me towards people, but people towards me is what that counts.
thursday. hmmm. a chance of waking up late in the morning but ended up waking up early and played games.
a chance of having the time to revise last week's lesson as suddenly the teacher conduct a test. she told us already and we're kinda forget but luckily a friend of mind remembered so we just do an in-case revision. haha in-case revision... haiya a chance to open up my mind to embrace this wide world. hang out with a friend fromouter space romania. we could talk in english i swear but i dunno why we still wanted to talk in this alien language. haha yeah, spend almot 2++ hours, talking about things, exchange the culture, explain about my beloved Islam, lots. amazingly, how i can talk with an unknown person for hours? its like, meeting a long lost friend, and just sharing stories to keep up with each other after a long separation. it was fun though,
and had been planning for a few get together activities in the future. :) it is the chances of realizing, exactly, how many knowledge u need in the purpose of knowing people, and the knowledge needed in explaining my own believes. it was a great experience so far. now i know how different is their thoughts. and their understanding about things. in a conversation, we don't have to agree to everything they said, even if we wanted to respect their thoughts, if, the thoughts seems wrong, or sounds weird, we have to correct it,or like give out what we think about it firmly, especially when it comes to religious rules, as a way to avoid misunderstanding. now when i think back, what is the real purpose of her asking me to hang out with her in the first place? errrr....
and so my week ended in thursday, as it haven't reached friday yet. but i am looking forward to the present that i will receive today. :) なんだろう。。期待している。
sorry for being invisible for a length of time :) got no time to loose.
by this week, i got a new idea of ways to write my blog. beginning from this post, InsyaAllah i will start to write my blog every week, and the title of the posts will be the summary of the week. :)
so, week of chances ey? what do we have? what do I have to tell?
this week had so many doors of chances, opened widely for me :)
first of all, last weekend, i went for an event, and it was so so AWESOME! learned lots of new things, met AWESOME people, been to a great place with great view,just because of one reason XD hope i will get that kind of opportunity again, and again and again. and come Monday morning, with a nice mark for a start, but alas, when went for the second class of the day, i thought; is it me playing dumb or am i really AM dumb? haha so,it was not that great, but graciously i went through that day, with a spirit that have never even reached the x-axis (if drawn in graph).
continued to the next day, where the math class as the first class becomes a not-so-easy task, followed by science computer class where the teacher taught things that doesn't make sense to any of my rational senses, and the seminar class, with questions like 'yeah i know about this, i learned it, YEARS AGO' where when at that time all of the things that had been crammed into my brain, where like, once upon a toy that have been kept long in the toy chest, which has no ending, that would never be found again. it is not a test, but only a practice, but still so real that made me think about the questions too extremely deep. when the other people in your class finish earlier and started to went out one by one until what's left is you against the teacher, then i realized how faraway is my knowledge compared to them. phewh. up until here, i'd said it is a chance of self discovering. weakness especially.
honestly, when wednesday came, my spirit went down below the x-axis. but i keep my faith, He knows everything, the best, and the worst; far more better than myself. :) it was physical education class. it is supposed to be the best class of the week, only if all of the players are girls.
thursday. hmmm.
a chance of having the time to revise last week's lesson as suddenly the teacher conduct a test. she told us already and we're kinda forget but luckily a friend of mind remembered so we just do an in-case revision. haha in-case revision... haiya a chance to open up my mind to embrace this wide world. hang out with a friend from
and had been planning for a few get together activities in the future. :) it is the chances of realizing, exactly, how many knowledge u need in the purpose of knowing people, and the knowledge needed in explaining my own believes. it was a great experience so far. now i know how different is their thoughts. and their understanding about things. in a conversation, we don't have to agree to everything they said, even if we wanted to respect their thoughts, if, the thoughts seems wrong, or sounds weird, we have to correct it,or like give out what we think about it firmly, especially when it comes to religious rules, as a way to avoid misunderstanding. now when i think back, what is the real purpose of her asking me to hang out with her in the first place? errrr....
and so my week ended in thursday, as it haven't reached friday yet. but i am looking forward to the present that i will receive today. :) なんだろう。。期待している。
sorry for the long post. and no i don't give a damn about it haha
Don't be sad,
Assalamualaikum.
and because of this,
i believe that every thing happens for a reason,
and to not take it as a burden,
because i will never be alone.
shed the tears,
heads up,
and walk straight ahead.
لا تحزان ان الله معنا
and because of this,
i believe that every thing happens for a reason,
and to not take it as a burden,
because i will never be alone.
shed the tears,
heads up,
and walk straight ahead.
Monday
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