Assalamualaikum.
The result. Reached. School. Friday. 23rd December.
i know i know, the fact that i am supposed to be praying rather than cursing alone out here.
but, in reality, the result had been printed out.
i can imagine it.
it had been in my head since i walked out from the xmination hall.
a piece of paper, the size of a regular postcard u get from a friend that had been travelling and just wanted to make a reminder of them to you.
ok, that was clearly far from the topic..
then there is my picture, printed in black and white,
my name,
my personal details,
etc etc,
the results...................
. . .
. . .
. . .
ok i don't know how was it yet bcos i haven't claimed it yet.
but....
then that was it.
either its gloomy and dying.
either its happy and jumping.
suddenly i hate numbers.
as in the drama in AXN.
i mean the drama itself.
honestly, guys.
it freaks me out.
i am so scared.
terribly.
feel like crying my eyes out.
i am really really really scared.
but then again,
i always tell people,
whatever you get, that's the best thing that Allah had given to you.
accept it with open heart.
bcos Allah always knows what's best for us at this very moment.
trust Him and believe that everything happens for a reason
and put your hopes up, that it happened for a good cause.
and now i have to use it on myself.
i've studied, i've tried,
yes.
i know it seems like i have not studied enough.
i know i can do more, i can do better,
but
now i just need to pray
and tawakal.
do give me strength to attend to your tests.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Ya Allah, jika rezeki itu ada di langit, kau turunkan ia sebanyak-banyaknya.
jika rezeki itu ada di bumi, kau keluarkan ia sebanyak-banyaknya,
jika rezeki itu ada di laut, kau timbulkan ia sebanyak-banyaknya,
jika rezeki itu sedikit, kau banyakkan sebanyak-banyaknya,
jika rezeki itu jauh, kau dekatkan sedekat-dekatnya.
Ya Allah, kau ampunkan dosa-dosaku dan dosa-dosa para sahabat,
jangan biarkan dosa-dosa kami menjadi penghalang kepada kejayaan kami dunia akhirat.
Amin.
Monday
Tuesday
Eclipse.
Assalamualaikum.
don't ask me how eju was.
one word.
s*#k
on my 2 weeks holiday. now apparently in kk, at my brother's house.
homeworks were brought along but have no intentions on doing it. yet.
proud with harimau muda.
worth the night staying up XD
(standing ovation)
gosh.
can't described what i'm going thru right now.
just having you at this very moment is a precious thing.
i'll take care of it i promise.
everything is gonna be alright.
bliss.
don't ask me how eju was.
one word.
s*#k
on my 2 weeks holiday. now apparently in kk, at my brother's house.
homeworks were brought along but have no intentions on doing it. yet.
proud with harimau muda.
worth the night staying up XD
(standing ovation)
gosh.
can't described what i'm going thru right now.
just having you at this very moment is a precious thing.
i'll take care of it i promise.
everything is gonna be alright.
bliss.
Friday
Festive Day
Assalamualaikum.
Selamat Hari Raya! to all muslims who came across this page to read. :) Forgive me, for all my mistakes and let bygones be bygones. i really wanted to start over again, but a friend of mine asked me not to, afraid of forgetting all the good deeds that had occured. meeting syawal, the month of forgiveness is great. but leaving Ramadhan was sure a hard thing. compared to previous year, this year's Ramadhan was quite fruitful to me, religiously, but i admit, it'll took a whole year of Ramadhan to be as behave as i can during that holy month. will i ever meet it again? am praying that i can. you too. let us pray together. and until we meet it, let us prepare ourself body and soul, so that we can go through it again without being tired, or feel it as a burden. Fasting month was sure a lot of fun! pen off,,
Wednesday
Under the paper moon.
Assalamualaikum.
when your hope is lost,
and all you can ever think of was
'nah forget it. i give up'
soon after,
it comes right back hurling to you.
damn right how i can ever forget this thing.
Ramadhan is in!
am truly wanting to make this one better than the past
and hope that i can go thru it again.
amin.
but first,
i will cherish it as long as i am in it.
Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan aku dan sahabat2 ku.
Amin.
and now,
i do need help and motivation.
right.
about
now.
when your hope is lost,
and all you can ever think of was
'nah forget it. i give up'
soon after,
it comes right back hurling to you.
damn right how i can ever forget this thing.
Ramadhan is in!
am truly wanting to make this one better than the past
and hope that i can go thru it again.
amin.
but first,
i will cherish it as long as i am in it.
Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan aku dan sahabat2 ku.
Amin.
and now,
i do need help and motivation.
right.
about
now.
Saturday
Crap.
Assalamualaikum.
let's just say that i am STUCK between my mind and my heart.
DAMN.
as the japanese says,
haha just the usual stupid reasons of a self-lost teenage.
so,
Optimus prime and Ironman.
which?
the real and the fake.
which?
bet you and you cannot understand a thing.
don't worry, me neither.
the other day, went to uia, in disguise.
haha managed to bewitch the guards and entered the place,
safe and soundly.
anything to meet ma lil friend.
QY! (claps)
she caught someone compliment my outfit,
and merry go round the cafe. and jaya one.
she treated me nando's, xtra hot peri peri i tell you.
and we bid goodbye after a few hours,
and there i was starting to have coarse sand in my throat
and here i am coughing not stop with phlegm stuck in my throat.
no, i didn't blame the peri peri though.
it was my mistake to poke on the lemon in my tea.haha
but i love the toilet symbol dowh!
THANKS A LOT, QY!!!!!!!
and after that, out of the blue,
got an invite to go to low yatt via ts.
and i enjoyed a hell lot of gadgets there :)
next week will be full of tests
and yukata on saturday.
BON ODORI!
hands off the keyboard.
later,,
let's just say that i am STUCK between my mind and my heart.
DAMN.
as the japanese says,
ダブルパンチthe cause?
haha just the usual stupid reasons of a self-lost teenage.
so,
Optimus prime and Ironman.
which?
the real and the fake.
which?
bet you and you cannot understand a thing.
don't worry, me neither.
the other day, went to uia, in disguise.
haha managed to bewitch the guards and entered the place,
safe and soundly.
anything to meet ma lil friend.
QY! (claps)
she caught someone compliment my outfit,
and merry go round the cafe. and jaya one.
she treated me nando's, xtra hot peri peri i tell you.
and we bid goodbye after a few hours,
and there i was starting to have coarse sand in my throat
and here i am coughing not stop with phlegm stuck in my throat.
no, i didn't blame the peri peri though.
it was my mistake to poke on the lemon in my tea.haha
but i love the toilet symbol dowh!
THANKS A LOT, QY!!!!!!!
and after that, out of the blue,
got an invite to go to low yatt via ts.
and i enjoyed a hell lot of gadgets there :)
next week will be full of tests
and yukata on saturday.
BON ODORI!
hands off the keyboard.
later,,
coincidence.
Assalamualaikum.
you're there.
WE,
were there,
but you just ignored me.
ceh.
later,
don't crawl back to me,
begging.
you're there.
WE,
were there,
but you just ignored me.
ceh.
later,
don't crawl back to me,
begging.
Sweet dreams.
Assalamualaikum.
hey,
you're never a nightmare.
you're just a bad memory.
i hate it.
and i mean it.
hey,
you're never a nightmare.
you're just a bad memory.
i hate it.
and i mean it.
Thursday
ゴロゴロ する
Assalamualaikum.
my catalysers to keep me awake,
a fan that stands,
a nice bottle of tea,
glee,
and SAM.
:)
now lets get back to bussiness -_-'
my catalysers to keep me awake,
a fan that stands,
a nice bottle of tea,
glee,
and SAM.
:)
now lets get back to bussiness -_-'
Sunday
O.M.G
i am so into KLAINE.
i don't know why.
can someone bring me back to what straight feels like? haih.
i don't know why.
can someone bring me back to what straight feels like? haih.
Monday
Run?
Assalamualaikum.
if you ask me how many times did you ever think of giving up?
well, no need.
its more than thousands
or might be billions of them.
and when asked how many times i have failed,
yeah,
the same.
a few trillions i think.
God,
please forbid me from ever run away from these two,
because they are the reasons that i,
climbing,
fragile, upon the unseen end of this stairs.
i started it,
so i have to end it.
and this is just half of it.
SEMANGAT!
if you ask me how many times did you ever think of giving up?
well, no need.
its more than thousands
or might be billions of them.
and when asked how many times i have failed,
yeah,
the same.
a few trillions i think.
God,
please forbid me from ever run away from these two,
because they are the reasons that i,
climbing,
fragile, upon the unseen end of this stairs.
i started it,
so i have to end it.
and this is just half of it.
SEMANGAT!
Wednesday
hold on
Assalamualaikum.
even though the world is against me,
even if my friends ignore me whenever i am around,
even if my parents abandoned me,
even if my brain had lost its interest in physics and chem and maths,
even if the blood in my body nearly drain,
the heart pulsating weakly,
the words in my mind didn't come out as i want it to,
and people keep their ears clogged,
their eyes shut,
i'll be strong.
even though the world is against me,
even if my friends ignore me whenever i am around,
even if my parents abandoned me,
even if my brain had lost its interest in physics and chem and maths,
even if the blood in my body nearly drain,
the heart pulsating weakly,
the words in my mind didn't come out as i want it to,
and people keep their ears clogged,
their eyes shut,
i'll be strong.
Friday
composed.
Assalamualaikum.
aku tahu Dia telah tetapkan apa yang akan aku dapat dan peroleh.
malah aku tahu itu yang terbaik untuk aku.
sebab kalau dia tak uji aku sebegini rupa,
mungkin aku akan jadi pelupa.
'aku ingin dengar dia merintih kepada ku'
kalau kau majikan kaya,
pembantu kau ingin kenaikan gaji,
tentu kau ingin kan katakata rayuan sebelum memberi apa yang diminta,
kan?
mungkin kau rasa kau dah usaha dengan gigih.
tapi mungkin rezeki kau bukan pada waktu ini.
dalam erti kata lain,
usaha lagi,
jangan mengalah,
teruskan berusaha.
rezeki Allah itu luas terbentang,
nikmat yang diberi pun dah banyak sangat,
tak terkira, bahkan kadang2 kita sendiri pun tak sedar.
Alhamdulillah.
aku tahu Dia telah tetapkan apa yang akan aku dapat dan peroleh.
malah aku tahu itu yang terbaik untuk aku.
sebab kalau dia tak uji aku sebegini rupa,
mungkin aku akan jadi pelupa.
'aku ingin dengar dia merintih kepada ku'
kalau kau majikan kaya,
pembantu kau ingin kenaikan gaji,
tentu kau ingin kan katakata rayuan sebelum memberi apa yang diminta,
kan?
mungkin kau rasa kau dah usaha dengan gigih.
tapi mungkin rezeki kau bukan pada waktu ini.
dalam erti kata lain,
usaha lagi,
jangan mengalah,
teruskan berusaha.
rezeki Allah itu luas terbentang,
nikmat yang diberi pun dah banyak sangat,
tak terkira, bahkan kadang2 kita sendiri pun tak sedar.
Alhamdulillah.
Monday
killing time
Assalamualaikum.
kenapa kalau menghadap sahaja Sam, masa akan terbuang lebih pantas daripada menyiapkan tugasan2 wajib yang harus aku laksanakan? musykil.
hal dunia je semua tuh, abaikan.
kenapa kalau menghadap sahaja Sam, masa akan terbuang lebih pantas daripada menyiapkan tugasan2 wajib yang harus aku laksanakan? musykil.
hal dunia je semua tuh, abaikan.
saya gagal fizik.
Assalamualaikum.
alah, macam tak biase la pulak.
fine. i had to reseat the test. so? with that, i'll be far more better because i answered the question twice, and i will understand it twice as much as you are.
fine. the highest was 94 and mine can't even passed the average marks. so? that doesn't mean that i am SPIUTD. because of my own careless mistakes ends me up with that horrifying marks. i am so nearing the correct answer weyh!
fine. because this time around it was BAD, wait until the next term. by then i will be fully recharged and ready to take REVENGE! just like the old days.
fine. until that time comes, i will not go back.
p/s: making someone smile is the same as making your own heart laugh. Happy Belated Birthday Ayzie. :)
alah, macam tak biase la pulak.
fine. i had to reseat the test. so? with that, i'll be far more better because i answered the question twice, and i will understand it twice as much as you are.
fine. the highest was 94 and mine can't even passed the average marks. so? that doesn't mean that i am SPIUTD. because of my own careless mistakes ends me up with that horrifying marks. i am so nearing the correct answer weyh!
fine. because this time around it was BAD, wait until the next term. by then i will be fully recharged and ready to take REVENGE! just like the old days.
fine. until that time comes, i will not go back.
p/s: making someone smile is the same as making your own heart laugh. Happy Belated Birthday Ayzie. :)
Sunday
Superlazy,
Assalamualaikum.
ye. itu aku.
menyaksikan kisah epik terunggul semalam membuatkan aku ingin berbicara seperti zaman dahulukala, merencana hikayat seperti tun lanang dan yang sewaktu dgnnya.
lupakan.
kerana karangan tentang 'aku' masih belum terlaksana. tetapi aku masih tidak tergerak untuk melaksanakannya. mungkin aku rindu akan karangan fakta.
apa yang ingin aku cuba sampaikan, ye, aku sangat tertekan di saat saat genting ini, kenapa dan mengapa masih belum dapat dibedah siasat lagi. cuma kenapa semua yang aku belajar tiba2 hilang sewaktu aku menghadap sehelai kertas, penuh dengan ayat2 yang berakhir dengan tanda soal itu aku masih tak tahu. si genius aku yang dahulu sudah hilang. aku nak cari dia tapi tak tahu mana nak mula. guess i have to come back to the basics. tetapi si basic itu di mana aku pun tidak tahu.
aku perlu pemangkin, seperti kehadiran potassium manganate (vii) dalam larutan sodium hidroksida dan zink klorida.
Please.
ye. itu aku.
menyaksikan kisah epik terunggul semalam membuatkan aku ingin berbicara seperti zaman dahulukala, merencana hikayat seperti tun lanang dan yang sewaktu dgnnya.
lupakan.
kerana karangan tentang 'aku' masih belum terlaksana. tetapi aku masih tidak tergerak untuk melaksanakannya. mungkin aku rindu akan karangan fakta.
apa yang ingin aku cuba sampaikan, ye, aku sangat tertekan di saat saat genting ini, kenapa dan mengapa masih belum dapat dibedah siasat lagi. cuma kenapa semua yang aku belajar tiba2 hilang sewaktu aku menghadap sehelai kertas, penuh dengan ayat2 yang berakhir dengan tanda soal itu aku masih tak tahu. si genius aku yang dahulu sudah hilang. aku nak cari dia tapi tak tahu mana nak mula. guess i have to come back to the basics. tetapi si basic itu di mana aku pun tidak tahu.
aku perlu pemangkin, seperti kehadiran potassium manganate (vii) dalam larutan sodium hidroksida dan zink klorida.
Please.
Thursday
Lifted
Assalamualaikum.
my first post in 2011. and yes aku jeles tahap babun ngan daniel arief sebab dapat Oosaka Dai. aku janji after ne aku tak nak pandang orang sebelah mata lagi. (siot punye orang!) ugh *x* tapi because of him jugak aku tahu nak masuk Dai tersebut tak impossile. to reach that part, by folks. aku nak study lu. ohoh. weekend burlesque!
p/s: cenggane la nak berjaya lau baru tanam cita dah pk hiburan? Ya Allah, ampunkan dosa aku dan berilah aku petunjuk dan hidayah. Amin.
my first post in 2011. and yes aku jeles tahap babun ngan daniel arief sebab dapat Oosaka Dai. aku janji after ne aku tak nak pandang orang sebelah mata lagi. (siot punye orang!) ugh *x* tapi because of him jugak aku tahu nak masuk Dai tersebut tak impossile. to reach that part, by folks. aku nak study lu. ohoh. weekend burlesque!
p/s: cenggane la nak berjaya lau baru tanam cita dah pk hiburan? Ya Allah, ampunkan dosa aku dan berilah aku petunjuk dan hidayah. Amin.
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