Week of Chances;

Assalamualaikum.

sorry for being invisible for a length of time :) got no time to loose. ok i lied. got so many times wasted playing games, lalalililulu been here and there, done this and that, had my mind in so many places that i wish i can float here and there. i was just in the middle of reviving myself after a week of feeling homesick, that's true. am so happy,excited,flustered,flabbergasted,AWESOME! because got the chance to skype with my family :) well, most of them. the second child will always be left as an outsider, is it? haha never mind,

by this week, i got a new idea of ways to write my blog. beginning from this post, InsyaAllah i will start to write my blog every week, and the title of the posts will be the summary of the week. :) haha buat susah je terangkan macam la ramai sangat baca blog aku muahaha


so, week of chances ey? what do we have? what do I have to tell?

this week had so many doors of chances, opened widely for me :)

 first of all, last weekend, i went for an event, and it was so so AWESOME! learned lots of new things, met AWESOME people, been to a great place with great view,just because of one reason XD hope i will get that kind of opportunity again, and again and again. and come Monday morning, with a nice mark for a start, but alas, when went for the second class of the day, i thought; is it  me playing dumb or am i really AM dumb? haha so,it was not that great, but graciously i went through that day, with a spirit that have never even reached the x-axis (if drawn in graph).

continued to the next day, where the math class as the first class becomes a not-so-easy task, followed by science computer class where the teacher taught things that doesn't make sense to any of my rational senses, and the seminar class, with questions like 'yeah i know about this, i learned it, YEARS AGO' where when at that time all of the things that had been crammed into my brain, where like, once upon a toy that have been kept long in the toy chest, which has no ending, that would never be found again. it is not a test, but only a practice, but still so real that made me think about the questions too extremely deep. when the other people in your class finish earlier and started to went out one by one until what's left is you against the teacher, then i realized how faraway is my knowledge compared to them. phewh. up until here, i'd said it is a chance of self discovering. weakness especially.

honestly, when wednesday came, my spirit went down below the x-axis. but i keep my faith, He knows everything, the best, and the worst; far more better than myself. :) it was physical education class. it is supposed to be the best class of the week, only if all of the players are girls. okayh dah masuk mood rindu sekolah, hmm when you are the only girl that plays basketball in that class, kinda lonely though. boys run faster, reflexes are better, they got strategies planned in their mind even before the ball is pass. in simple, they are stronger. why do i chose basketball in the first place? that is the only sport that i know i can run here and there, and the only thing that i can do to burn calories worth the week. maybe. haha and i played like a clown juggling the ball, like my head and my body are two different things, separated partially. haha for this past week the boys ignore me like i am not even playing, but this week, Alhamdulillah they started passing the ball, slow motionly,without great forces, or should i say, girlishly throwing the ball towards me? they are becoming nicer and hope that it will stay that way. have you ever felt like loosing hope on something, but suddenly in that instant you see the ray of hope, again? happens to me lots of time. and it is nice to know things like this still happens to me. not to say that my prayers are being answered, or that i got His attention, but to say that yeah, things happen for a reason, and that He will fulfill His promise, to those who waits patiently. InsyaAllah. and so, i would say that this is the chance of noticing kindness of people around me, and not just me counting my good deeds towards other people. it is not about me towards people, but people towards me is what that counts.

thursday. hmmm. a chance of waking up late in the morning but ended up waking up early and played games.
a chance of having the time to revise last week's lesson as suddenly the teacher conduct a test. she told us already and we're kinda forget but luckily a friend of mind remembered so we just do an in-case revision. haha in-case revision... haiya a chance to open up my mind to embrace this wide world. hang out with a friend from outer space romania. we could talk in english i swear but i dunno why we still wanted to talk in this alien language. haha yeah, spend almot 2++ hours, talking about things, exchange the culture, explain about my beloved Islam, lots. amazingly, how i can talk with an unknown person for hours? its like, meeting a long lost friend, and just sharing stories to keep up with each other after a long separation. it was fun though,
and had been planning for a few get together activities in the future. :) it is the chances of realizing, exactly, how many knowledge u need in the purpose of knowing people, and the knowledge needed in explaining my own believes. it was a great experience so far. now i know how different is their thoughts. and their understanding about things. in a conversation, we don't have to agree to everything they said, even if we wanted to respect their thoughts, if, the thoughts seems wrong, or sounds weird, we have to correct it,or like give out what we think about it firmly, especially when it comes to religious rules, as a way to avoid misunderstanding. now when i think back, what is the real purpose of her asking me to hang out with her in the first place? errrr....

and so my week ended in thursday, as it haven't reached friday yet. but i am looking forward to the present that i will receive today. :) 　なんだろう。。期待している。

sorry for the long post. and no i don't give a damn about it haha